Posted by meffect on January 24, 2015, at 2:07:39
I'm so confused. Depression runs in my family and I seem to have an extreme sensitivity to emotions - since i was born. I overact on almost everything. I avoid social situations because I usually end up interpreting someones words,tone,facial expression, etc as negative (even though I tell myself its not) and I end up feeling extremely depressed and I often times end up crying that night and wanting to kill myself. sometimes i wish an accident would happen and kill me because i cant do it myselfI cant achieve my hopes and dreams in life. I cant handle interpersonal communication for any length of time.
I have insomnia, i have an dependence on benzo's, i feel bored all the time. ssri's help but they make me tired i think
i'm tired all the time, i take naps at lunch and i have rem sleep and i hardly get any rest. i wouldnt even call it a nap
every day is different i have no stability or consistency
anyway, back to the subject. im tired all the time so my docs give me stims. stims = dopamine usually. so, i take the dopamine increasers and i seem to lose control. i interpret almost everything negatively and im extremely emotional.
also i cant handle epinephrine increasers, but it seems to cause more anxiety than heightened emotional responses.
wtf is wrong with me!!!!!!! what do I do. I dont want to give up but i've tried almost every drug in the last 5 years
poster:meffect
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