Posted by Chris O on December 19, 2014, at 9:11:04
In reply to Re: rTMS after two weeks, posted by b2chica on December 18, 2014, at 20:59:04
Thanks, b2chica!
I am still figuring out how I feel about this treatment. If it is doing as little as I think, I don't know if it should be a first line treatment. I certainly would be pissed off if I had to pay $10,000 and my current lack of improvement was the end result. And I am treatment resistant, though it's hard to say if it's more depression or anxiety or a combination of the two.
As to the side effects, I don't think there have been many. (But I'm still pondering that, too. Sometimes I feel I cannot concentrate very well due to the treatment and by that I mean it's like the treatment has somehow worsened my ability to concentrate.) The sound is not a big deal with the earplugs in. The positioning of my neck and head is a little weird, but other than that, sitting there is no big deal.
My biggest "challenge" with this treatment (if you want to call it that), is the young (somewhat controlling) woman whom my doctor has given control over the whole treatment with 30 or 40 patients in his office doing rTMS (the scheduling, operation of the machine, telling me what to do, etc.). The more I think about her and the fact that he has hardly interacted with me during the treatment, the more it annoys me. I feel like I have to be some type of therapeudic quasi confessional relationship with her due to the nature of what's going on, yet I know she doesn't "get" my situation at all. And I guess my psychiatrist doesn't either because he seems to think she's the cat's pajamas. Anyway, this is ending soon, so I won't have to think about that much longer.
Looks like it's back to the med cabinet for me after this, if I want to keep my marriage in tact and have a place to live and continue to have insurance. My wife is really getting angry about my level of dysfunction. Truly, do not know much longer I can deal with the level of humiliation I feel and the fact that so many people do not notice it, attributing my situation to "lack of willpower" or "looserness" or some other similarly upsetting thing.
And on that happy note, I wish you luck, as well.
Chris
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