Posted by laurah952 on July 3, 2013, at 6:29:55
In reply to Re: 14yo daughter - bi-polar, not MDD - new info HELP » laurah952, posted by Phillipa on July 2, 2013, at 18:04:05
Hi Phillipa,
I can certainly forgive and move on. I extend the same forgiveness I wish to receive in return. Besides, I was just getting acclimated here. I feel that I can find the help I need here, as well as help others with my years of being a psychiatric patient myself.
I don't feel like such a great mom right now. I just took Taylor to her intake for new pdoc. She spoke with a therapist there so we could give all of Taylor's history. When it came to the question of "trauma", Taylor looked at me, and I knew it was time for me to leave so she could speak about her childhood, and whatever it is that she still holds onto today.
I wanted to mention it before, but I'm a recovering alcoholic, and I was not always there for Taylor the way she needed me. I didn't drink all that often, but when I did I was mean or stupid. I was self medicating nearly all my life. Taylor witnessed fights between myself and her father - things she shouldn't have seen. I want her to open up about this, but since this whole process began, she hasn't really opened up to me - only therapists to whom she felt comfortable with.
I find myself very depressed right now. For the past couple of days, I've woken up and have just not wanted to be here. My physical pain is ridiculous again lately - it's difficult to move past that. I don't know it it's situational, because to be frank, my life sucks. I may need to look at my meds again - does anyone know if Cymbalta has the "prozac effect" where it just stops working?? If I even care later, I should probably post a new thread about this.
Thanks - Laura
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