Posted by AMD on April 5, 2013, at 17:21:10
I am in hell right now. I cannot function I'm so depressed. I can't focus on anything, I just want to cry. I feel as if my life is over. Just one week ago I was feeling fine, focused, work going well, and in a good groove. Then I smoked some methamphetamine for about four or five hours -- not sure how much as I was already blacking out from alcohol, but probably six or seven puffs -- on Friday night after already having had cocaine and alcohol, and when I got home I immediately crashed and felt terrible. I woke up a few hours later extremely depressed and worried and jittery, and since then I've just wanted to sleep, my head has felt engulfed in blackness, the thought of concentrating on something makes me want to cry, I just feel like everything is over. What have I done? :-( All this from one night? I am sitting in Starbucks now trying to read the paper and it's pointless. I feel like a zombie. I can't imagine ever thinking clearly again. Did I do permanent damage to my brain from that night? I haven't felt this terrible in years and years. I'm so, so sad. :-(
amd
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