Posted by AMD on April 5, 2013, at 19:26:48
In reply to Re: Hell » AMD, posted by Phil on April 5, 2013, at 19:14:59
Reassurance from all of you helps, even if I can't fully believe it. I keep telling myself I've felt like this before and pulled out of it, usually after a week, but then another voice tells me, "Yes, but you've done crystal," and the worry and concern comes back. Cocaine as bad as it is is not a neurotoxin, and I know my cycle when I've done it. But this is new territory and I'm freaked out about it because I don't know what the aftermath will be. For all I know I just entered a years-long depression. Trying not to think that way but it would be a lot easier if I felt I could concentrate on anything, that I wasn't just walking around like a zombie.
I hope I pull out of this soon. It's so frustrating and disheartening. It's hard to feel hope when all I see is blackness. Will my feelings come back suddenly, or will I just feel mundane and depressed until one day, with work, I can focus on happiness again? I hope the former not the latter.
amd
> When I quit drink and drugs 30 years ago part of the reason, aside from dying, was it could take a week or more to pull out of a deep depression. I think that's about the time I started meds.
> You'll get thru this. TrRy to treat yourself really good right now and also forgive yourself because it just adds coal to the fire.
> Bubble baths, healthy food, fresh air, walk on the beach, whatever. Don't dwell.
>
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