Posted by zippo on March 30, 2013, at 17:12:56
In reply to Re: Fell off the wagon, posted by joe schmoe on March 30, 2013, at 15:51:24
I appreciate the words of support.
This was the first and I hope only time I've ever crossed this line. I always told myself it was one thing I would not do, ever, and yet I found myself last night in a dingy apartment passing around a pipe. I feel like utter hell right now. Is this the come down? I feel weak and blue and shaky -- how long will this last?
On another note this is so humiliating and shameful. I feel like such a failure. I'm trying not to dwell on it, but still, it's terrible.
On top of that I also breathed in some kind of inhalent, and some amyl nitrate. It appears last night was my attempt to destroy my body in one go. :-(
I just hope there are no long-term effects. I'm going to Hazelden next week to try and turn this around.
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