Posted by g_g_g_unit on January 26, 2013, at 1:32:59
In reply to Re: disheartening psychiatrist appt. » g_g_g_unit, posted by baseball55 on January 25, 2013, at 18:30:27
> He sounds incredibly insensitive. But, for me anyway, I believe suicidal plans did provide a "secondary gain" in that they gave me some peace and the thought of a way out. But, as my therapist told me, they are not your friends. They are your enemies. It took me some time to see that.
I can't tell if he's insensitive, distant, or if it's just the most suitable demeanor re: analytically-based psychodynamic approaches. I've never felt 'loved' by him though. For some reason, he did bring up how I construct these notions that people have no good intent towards me; it almost felt like some kind of ad hominem attack that he was launching into. But there's never been an effusive warmth in his manner that's countered that impression, whereas I have felt love/care by other professionals (usually psychologists).
I just don't understand this whole "it's for your own best interests that I don't prescribe medication" thing. It's happened to me about 4 times now. It's demeaning and makes me feel like some kind of addict (even though I'm not requesting scheduled drugs), and makes me wonder if I do have some kind of pathology/obsession, or if psychiatrists here are simply too conservative, or if I'm just doing a bad job of relaying information. I must admit that sometimes I will hide my distress out of fear that the psychiatrist will "take control" and overmedicate me. But I am also trying to look out for my own best interests. So it's a difficult balancing act.
No one asks to be unwell, and who naturally doesn't want the 'best'/'perfect' treatment (even if it doesn't exist)?
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