Posted by b2chica on October 30, 2012, at 15:00:18
In reply to Re: med update... » b2chica, posted by phidippus on October 30, 2012, at 13:49:03
> >i have klonopin at home from failed trial. i got very very angry and aggitated with it.
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> That's called a paradoxical reaction. You can have them with any benzo. I experienced it with Xanax.thank you. good to know.
> >"...to die to die to die..."
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> Those are some very obsessive thoughts you are having about death. Would you say you are suicidal?yes very
> The Pristiq should be helping with that kind of symptom. MAybe its time to stop it. Did you talk to your doctor about the 'suicidal' thoughts you are having?i txt'd him this morning i still haven't heard anything. i started to txt him again and canceled txt. i dont know what to say.
how to say it.
i want to copy what i said here on txt but too long.
i'm so full of energy. so full of self-disdain.i curl with the thought of letting it out. its like a shroud of death is cloaking me.
its seduction is so tempting...
to breathe easy after death comes, i want for peace of mind.
i think i'm ready for an ugly death, inorder to gain peace of mind. i've survived and fought this long, i will try to continue, but i hear it say that its only a matter of time. the time will come when i can no longer fight off the lure of sweet death.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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