Posted by b2chica on October 30, 2012, at 13:21:56
In reply to Re: med update... » B2chica, posted by phidippus on October 30, 2012, at 11:07:44
thanks Eric. i have klonopin at home from failed trial. i got very very angry and aggitated with it. i know opposite of what its supposed to do but fact is there. i think there was at least one other person here that has had similar reaction.
so far i've taken 4 gabapentins i took long lunch and went to friends house to vent about DH, she had exact same issue with her DH. maybe its the moon. IDK.
all i know is the gaba helped with the angry inward energy, but the thoughts are still bombarding so i have my earbuds in and trying to focus on the music and work to distract.
God the thoughts are SO strong. "to die to die to die to be nowhere, to disappear, to die to die to enter into nothingness, to make the pain of despair disappear. i am from nothing, to nothing i will return. off yourself, no one will even notice...you touch no one, it wont matter, people will say it does, but dont believe them, it wont. no one really cares, not until its taken away. if you Really want to be remembered, die."
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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