Posted by phillipa on October 11, 2012, at 12:26:46
Well here goes I know I've asked many times about meds and haven't listened. I admit this. No excuses just the reason. First OCD leaves me feeling I must be in Control. Fear Is a Large Component. That dates back to docs that took me off meds that worked and then gave me meds that ended up causing side effects that were intolerable to me. And then when tried to return to the one that worked it didn't. Now after 43 years I keep cutting down on the xanax & valium at night. .25mg xanax & 5mg of valium. And the forever luvox 50mg as this is the only ad that never caused a side effect for me. Been on low dose for I would guess 11 years top. I did add the 2.5mg of lexapro which I go off and on as note nothing. I'm getting old 66. Got the aches & horrific pain of arthritis in back and osteoporosis. Still test positive for lymes but as dumb as it sounds here they will not recognize it. Doc in Greenville does but 6 hours away. So I don't know if all these things factor in. The biggest factor is the thyroid pill I take during the night when wake. Until then I'm okay. But when get up feel so horrible I can barely function. I blow things so out of proportion it's not funny. As the day goes on if I leave and get out with husband as get so fearful without him I can't. I've tried. So if I take no meds during the day and ride bike in early evening. Get pain then. But still feel relieved the day is almost over. Add to this the 9 years of no taste & smell and yes 4 specialists there is absolutely no pleasure in my life. As eat the same things daily and then get so depressed brush teeth to wipe the thought of food away. So I stick with what I know. I cancelled pdoc appointment today as why go he doesn't care and offers nothing but do the same. And reenforces in me I have ocd. Only the anxiety part with ruminating. So I ask for last time that maybe I missed something and someone will pick it up. Still have minocycline here and yes it's fresh. Did get dizzy and since hasimotos thyroiditis I read that a false lupus and black skin can occur with that. Also think of cymbalta. But then remember the two weeks with no sleep on high doses of benzos when the other pdoc here took me off luvox for a baseline and only when I went back on the luvox did I sleep.Any thoughts. If I could have anything it would be to be 20 years younger and again have the luxary of being able to taste food and eat chips & salsa and read. Now it grief over losses of this and life getting shorter. Thanks enough of your time. Thanks Phillipa
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