Posted by b2chica on August 30, 2012, at 15:56:43
what is going on with me. this morning i was still a alittle down. think left over from all the xanax itook. about 11:00 i began to peak. peak well. i felt Great. i talked with three people, each one for about a 1/2 hour, just gabbing, talking fast about everything...things i dont normally talk to other people able. and i feel VERY VERY angry. i still want to gobble up my pills JUST BECAUSE. i want to jump off a bridge...luckly we dont have a high enough one around here where i live (midwest). an want to stand in front of a semi and HIT IT!!
WTF!!! i txt pdoc but haven't heard back but he's working so he propbably cant respond till he has a break maybe raound 5 or so. i told him i'm maxed on my rx gaba (took couple extra too) and i'm now on 1.5mg xanax.
i'm so PISSED!!!!!!!!! So MAD!!!!!!!!!
i feel blurry f rom meds, disoriented. but internal energy. nothing seems to be working!wth is going on with me?
i'll head to library but i probably wont be able to check responses till tomorrow.which I F*CK*NG KNOW i will be just old fine tomorrow. yes tomorrow , blah blah better blah fkg blah. let this f-ing night go fast! and keep me away from people and my pills, and traffic, and deep water....and....and...and/...
grrrr ughhhhh
b2c"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
poster:b2chica
thread:1024476
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