Posted by Christ_empowered on May 9, 2012, at 15:15:32
My application for disability has been approved. On the one hand, this is great. My parents will no longer have to support me, and I can live in the little apartment they bought me and have my own funds and be more autonomous.
On the other hand...wow. I'm crazed enough to get disability. I could possibly stay on disability for the rest of my days. I"m 27 now. This is a little ridiculous. What I'm hoping is that I can chill out some (I don't know if I have PTSD, but having an untreated psychotic disorder for years and being bullied and stigmatized because of it kinda took a toll on my psyche), do some vocational rehabilitation stuff, and maybe get a decent job sometime in the future.
I'm getting Medicaid, so now I could go somewhere besides the Public Mental Health place for treatment. I'd kind of like that...I don't want to sound like a junkie, but I think I could benefit from a benzo now and then, and public health in my state won't allow benzo prescriptions.
So...bitter-sweet victory, I guess. Also, its strange. I feel less incapacitated now than I was years ago, back when the shrinks were saying I wasn't crazy, just wanted to be "special," that I was stupid, etc. Now, the shrinks are saying I'm crazy, need meds, I got disability, and I supposedly have an above average IQ. Weird.
What do you think I should do? I was kind of thinking do an online (through a non-profit school, of course) program in...something. On disability, I'd qualify for hella financial aid and my parents would have more resources to chip in, so that's possible. Ugh. I just don't know.
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