Posted by Sailboat77 on April 17, 2012, at 10:29:40
I went through six weeks of TMS treatments, which ended 3 months ago, and now face the fact that it has failed. Initially, I felt as though my treatment-resistant depression was improving modestly. But 4 weeks after, I gradually realized my depression had not changed. It may have been my immense hope, and quite honestly my desperation, that led me to believe I was getting better when I truly wasn't.
I feel disheartened and stupid. I spent so much of my hope, time and money on this, only to find I'm not much better. It's hard to face the prospect that at the age of 25 the rest of my life will be marked by this depression. As many of you know, the sadness is hard to swallow. I'm really not sure what to do next. I suppose I'll continue with the Parnate, although it doesn't seem to do much like the multitude of other meds I have tried or prior ECT treatments.
I don't mean to take away hope from those looking to try TMS. Some people have indeed gotten significantly better. For myself though, I'm left with few other options. There has been a lot of talk about Ketamine but I'm not sure if it's a longterm solution or even available considering it's still in trials. I don't know if anyone has better insights into Ketamine--my doctor mentioned getting me into trials.
I just feel so sad.
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