Posted by Solstice on February 19, 2012, at 0:27:18
In reply to Re: Desperate » Solstice, posted by Beckett on February 19, 2012, at 0:04:23
> I was thinking of a major hormonal shift perhaps.
You make a good point. All my 3 kids were slow to reach puberty. It's my youngest that we're talking about, and she did not reach menses until she was 14.5 yrs old and in high school. She loved being so small compared to her age mates. She was petite and just adorable. Her physical immaturity became part of her identity, especially because others commented on it all the time. When she started Abilify, she gained quite a bit of weight at the same time that she was finally developing her 'womanly' figure, which was downright traumatic for her. And let me tell you, she spent two years resenting her short stint on Abilify. It took her a long time to adjust to being a young woman and she just couldn't be convinced that she would have developed that womanly shape regardless of the Abilify :-). She's okay with it now, though.
> I don't understand it at all, but some women eventually find contraceptives play a role in their mood health. I am not suggesting at all to introduce that to the mix now.
Yeah.. I hadn't thought of that. I have never been terribly 'hormonal' - in that I don't have swings. I didn't have them during my pregnancies - I just never had ups or downs or unstable days (until I dropped down the hole of major depression in response to C-PTSD.) Anyway, so I don't typically even think about it, but I think you're right that she may be one of the many women who are yanked around by the nose by their cyclical hormonal shifts. Thanks for bringing it up - because I think it merits being on my list when we see the PDoc on Tuesday.
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> I think you continue to navigate this incredibly well, Solstice.Thanks Beckett.. but I sure don't feel like I'm navigating it very well. She's been so very unstable, and of course, since I'm her safe place - all her irritability, anger, and distorted interpretations are directed at me.. so I frequently feel like I'm hanging by a thread. Since she's genuinely unable to 'see' the effect of her hypomania/mania, I think it's probably more traumatizing for me than it is for her. It sure does help me hang by that thread to be on the receiving end of kind comments like yours, though. :-)
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