Posted by zonked on October 21, 2011, at 19:26:13
Wow.
Something must be going right, because when I leave the gym now I feel pretty happy, almost euphoric. It doesn't last all day, and I return to baseline (which has more or less been pretty good lately.)
I looked at my chart: I started Nardil at 187 lbs. I am now 229. I just friggin' hope between going to the gym regularly and the testosterone I can lose the Nardil pounds.
There's something I call "The Nardil Paradox": Without it, I am so depressed I don't give a f*ck about dating, relationships, and anything in that domain - but once I've started to recover in part from it, I want those things again but have gotten so fat that it's no longer possible.
There has to be a way out of this. I am starting with 3-4 days a week of intense cardio, and once I get the proper training will add weights.
Saw the doc today. Have the paperwork for a followup testosterone lab.
I have a temp assignment next week and an interview with another temp agency. It's a start. If they can continue to get me long term assignments, I might end up at a client company. Or at least keep busy while I continue my jobsearch.
-z
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