Posted by hyperfocus on September 7, 2011, at 16:36:27
In reply to Re: what keeps you alive?, posted by g_g_g_unit on September 5, 2011, at 8:35:23
I feel exactly the same way g_g_g; I feel like my life as a teenager and a young adult is gone because of severe social phobia and depression. But the truth is that what little I have, I'm grateful for. We have life, for one thing, which many have had taken away from them unjustly at a much earlier age.
It might sound cynical but if you take a look at what's happening with the famine in Somalia you will find your quality-of-life index needing re-calibration. Mental illness is horrible, but I never had to worry about starving to death in the desert, or watching my my children die with flies covering their faces, or getting shot or raped by some crazy militia. There's a whole enormous multitude of horrors on this earth that I've been spared, for which I'm very grateful for.
Like Lar said, it's not logical to compare yourself to other people. I mean you might see somebody who's rich and married and all that and think "Why can't I be like that?" But suppose that the guys is a selfish, mean, stupid jerk who does everything wicked he can't get caught with. Would you like to be him? Life is not about what you acquire, it's about what you do with what you've been granted. Everybody everywhere whether they're living on a million-dollar yacht or a shopping cart on the street has to do the exact same thing every day. For me I'd rather try to keep a good heart and try to be good with my actions than have anything else. We're not in control over our brain chemistry or upbringing or whatever. Whatever we've been given we have to make the best of it. There's billions of people on this earth who go to sleep hopeful that tomorrow or next week or next year things will be better, something about their life will change. And if it doesn't then they just make the best of what they have and keep going for one more day. So we're not in bad company I'd say.
C-PTSD: social phobia, major depression, dissociation.
Currently: 300mg amitriptyline single dose at night.
Also: Allegra, 1000mg Vitamin C.
Improving.
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