Posted by floatingbridge on July 26, 2011, at 6:12:51
In reply to i dont want to anymore, just tired., posted by B2chica on July 25, 2011, at 12:27:34
> i called today finally to get appt with pdoc and cant get in for three weeks.
Three weeks for a crisis? Vacation time? Not good.
> wish i knew this earlier...
> i dont want to go to hospital again. no $
> i dont want experiemental meds anymore.
> i dont want cog.blunting
> i dont want weight gain
> i dont want nausea
> i dont want vision changes
> i dont want psychosisWhat's going on B2chica? You have been working really hard at recovery. Like a lion. Is something pooping out? Are you exhausted?
>
> i dont even know if i want to try anymore.
> im so sick of the med trials. as mentioned in thread above, having to wait weeks or months if something works. side effects.
> trying something else..etc.etc.Yes. Of course. What are you thinking of ditching?
> cycle after cycle after cycle.
>
> my next try is tca's.
> probably amitriptaline, tramipramine.Do you have physical pain? I'm curiuos as what you hope to gain. (truly curiuos)
> pdoc mentioned last time synthroid, but i just dont see that helping, only making me worse.
How so? Is your thyroidunder active? Lexoyl is a good thyroid replacement. I prefer it to sythroid.
> if i had a wish (besides cure)it would be to try agomelatine or stablon...
> come ON US! what's the hold up...I almost imported ago. But didn't want to self medicate. Figured I had enough problems.
>
> WTF do i do now...
> it started with BAD head noise at night. like restless leg syndrome in my head. pdoc thought akathesia?
> then over sleeping came, tired all the time, became VERY
irritable.
> and last night as i drank my wine to get to sleep i kept wondering what cold steel would feel like on my temple.
> the curiosities of death wonder back in my brain and i KNEW i had to call pdoc today...
> i did txt him and see if he could do anything via phone and that i couldnt get in for long while.Are you BPll? And doesn't this doc have a back up? Can you see someone in his practice? And your therapist?
>
> ...what now.
>
> perphenazine 2mg bid
> pristiq 50mg
> adderall 20mg bid/tid
> gabapentin 300mg (night)
> now added 5. to 1mg xanax each nightWhat do you suspect is exhausting you? What might you throw out? And bring in? Replacing the pristiq with a tca?
No way your life is gonna slow down temporarily ?
Take good care.
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