Posted by zonked on June 2, 2011, at 23:03:42
In reply to well, it went, posted by floatingbridge on June 2, 2011, at 22:49:10
Just curious, did you ever write professionally for a living? Your posts have a poetic touch - I wanted to let you know that =)
Hang in there...I'm pulling for you.
-z
> Life is complicated. People are complicated. I really love resolution writ in capitals.
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> I have a pdoc that is so concerned as to what to do, treatment almost comes to an absolute standstill.
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> Here's the rub. He is thinking so big picture now and very concerned with the ramifications of medication on my health. He is not convinced emsam is the best drug because it's relationship to amphetamines (probably why I respond) not because of abuse but long term affect on sleep and fibromyalgia.
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> To make a long story short, he sat and listened to me just talk about things he hadn't heard before. I just talked and he really listened. He seems to be reassessing in a triage way. Sleep trumps panic. I reset by sleeping. We finally got that information. Before I ever took any medication, I held out to my late thirties he asked how did I manage. Sleep. I would get so overwhelmed, if I could sleep, everything would be better. So he began to understand my desperation around having any f*cking sleep aid. And he got me to see that my desperation alarmed him and that it drives much of my decision making.
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> When I told him about walking me to the door but not going through, he asked me what was there. I said I don't know, I haven't been through. He said now we're getting closer to partnership. *Sigh* And amitrptilyne is not out of the picture anymore.
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> Signing off after one hell of a day.
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