Posted by cycling on July 30, 2010, at 3:14:51
In reply to Re: Racing/Anxiety Thoughts, Need Opinion + Meds, posted by morgan miller on July 30, 2010, at 2:58:04
Don't be sorry, you are like a godsend right now helping me out with this and trying to figure it out. So I just took an online mental screening test through my psychologist website testing for bipolar and general anxiety disorder. (specialtybehavioralhealth.com/mental-health-test)
According to the tests, I did not have Bipolar but I did have GAD. Now I don't know how accurate those tests are, but my psychologists uses it on his website so that has to mean something. So let me extend my experience.
I started college and starting experiencing OCD and its manifestations... doubting everything from sexuality to my relationships with friends. I came quite paranoid. I experimented with marijuana and even dabbled with cocaine a few times but that was it. The bad part was that I was a heavy drinker.. about 30 drinks/wk for a long period of time. I'd take the summers off, but during school year, almost every weekend was that. When I first came to my psychiatrist I was alll wound up, so he put me on lithium and that took the edge off, but didn't do ANYTHING for my thoughts. I still had so many thoughts going through my head that I had trouble concnetrationg and my short term memory sucked. To stop the racing thoughts he's put me on Lamictal-that didn't work (weaning off now). Then he tried seroquel (I've seen a little bit of improvement). He also gave me Klonopin which I started a day ago, which I intend to take every other day to see how that works out. I've started therapy today, and honestly, after just one day, I feel better already. I've been exercising daily, and ready to get done with these thoughts that's holding be back to fully enjoying the life I used to have - a life with confidence. I'm sick and tired of this and I'm doing everything in my will to get over this. I'm cool with a low dose of lithium, but these hard a$$ drugs I don't think is for me. I want to try an ssri and see what happens. My doctor didn't give me an ssri at first because he thought that'd make the "mania" even worse. He attributed my racing thoughts as mania. Now, don't get me wrong, I have alot of energy. I've been energetic guy all my life. I thought I just was hyper, my mom was hyper and we always joked I took after my mom. My father has OCD for sure. I still feel like I'm not "calm." I often have problems loosing my temper and irritable sometimes. I feel sometimes that I'm in this constant state of fear and hte littlest things I'll react to, even if my fly wizzes by I flinch. I hate it, I feel like a wimp...also, i'm 23. so what do you think?
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