Posted by violette on June 20, 2010, at 5:35:29
In reply to Re: anyone here had neuropsychological testing done? » violette, posted by g_g_g_unit on June 20, 2010, at 3:47:10
oh no - please don't take that a criticism of your writing-I didn't see anything wrong with how you expressed yourself-it wasn't that...though there are depressive undertones, understandingly..
It was your relationship with your PDoc-you kept writing about your experience, but you didn't mention how you felt about him-like there was some kind of emotional disconnect. That was very notable to me...but in your last posts you mentioned quite a few feelings...and now that you expressed how you felt in the relationship wtih your doctor, the intimidation, and feeling like his pushing you...It seems almost as if he is intrusive to you-crossing your boundaries so to speak; it appears to make you very uncomfortable. Does ot resonate to you that these feelings might be related to his being intrusive to you (mentally)? Sort of like a mental attack? I have felt that way around my mother, though I am unsure of how to explain it right now - I get feelings of 'emotional attack' when she talks to me.
Yes I've also noticed DP is usually a trait that goes with other things. Psychiatrists sometimes use diagnoses that don't make sense to us, but often have reasoning unrelated to 'best fit'-such ss billing, government reporting, or frequency of visits..or newer patients whose diagnoses are not yet conclusive.. Just a thougt, I don't know-a guess.
Stimulants can make depersonalization and related conditions worse, that could be a possible reason ofr his reluctance to try ADD meds. Based on only a short narrative you wrote, you might consider taking up your GP on that referral. It seems with your symptoms, you really need someone who understands your internal boundaries possibly being 'penetrated'. I'm sorry if this doesn't realte to you; these are just my thoughts in trying to help you look into the big picture.
Blurring the words on that test could be a creative adapting to focusing-I don't see it as a sabatage unless you did that on purpose (but from what you said-you didn't realize you were doing that until after?). I had found ways to adapt to some cognitive problems like you. When I took that test, I didn't read the words-like for school, I had developed using patterns to take exams when i had troulbe concentrating and reading. It worked great sometimes-I could remember the patterns of sentences, remembering the picture of how phrased looked rather than even reading the content. It's adaptation-I think that is one of your strenghts.
If you get the neuro-psych tests done, what do you have to lose? It could lead you closer to a solution to your issues. You sound sad; relying on parents can be discouraging, in addition to everything else going on in your life right now, but in relying on them now, it must just be an investment or sacrifice that will benefit you in the long run.
Best,
Violette
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