Posted by phil1909 on May 25, 2010, at 4:58:26
In reply to Re: all MAOIs? - back to NARDIL, posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2010, at 18:31:19
Hey there;
Oddly enough, to this day I've never even contemplated suicide. Probably, cause I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and I'm absolutely shyte scared of death (probably to a very unhealthy degree). BUT, I practiced MY OWN suicide by quitting jobs, dabbling in illegal drugs, hiding & running away from social situations, and sleeping way way too much up to 14 hours a day up to 16 hrs a day on weekends and holidays.
I've never really had trouble staying positive because I've become very AWARE of my condition and accepted it. Money and status do not effect me anymore. I appreciate and treasure time with my family like never before (though I have no friends that I socialize with anymore). I'm FAIRLY SPIRITUAL without being religious and basically I'm EGO-LESS. MY 'EGO' never really developed as my condition from a young age made me very self-critical. Eckhart Tolle is one modern spititual teacher I highly recommend as is Adyashanti (although Adyas teachings are very esoteric and less practical than Tolle). Anthony De Mello is also a brilliant enlightened priest with great PRACTICAL teachings. PLEASE NOTE: MY LIFE SITUATION LED ME TO SPIRITUAL SEEKING. IT IS NOT FOR EVERYONE. I'M VERY CURIOUS BY NATURE AND THESE TEACHINGS WERE A LOGICAL STEP FOR ME STEMMING FROM DISSATISFACTION WITH MY CATHOLIC STRICT ITALIAN UPBRINGING AND TOTAL FRUSTRATION WITH THE WORLD PLIGHT AND ORGANIZED RELIGIONS.
Unfortunately for me I've never been prescribed any MAOIs in my life (aside from Aurorix a very long time ago). Like many meds they are taboo in the medical circles because of their unpredictable side effects. HOWEVER, for me the mixtures and high doses of TriCyclcs, SSRIs, SNRIs, antipsychotics, beta-blockers, epilepsy meds, etc, have been nothing but maskers of my symptoms (leading me to eventually accept the zombie-like state they put me in) and completely useless in treating my 'anxiety' issues in the workplace and and general social awkwardness. Since uni ***I've had 15 jobs in 17 yrs and only been able to get jobs in the first place with the help of benzos such as xanax and valium***.
I've spent my life trying to explain to and convince GPs and psychiatrists that I do not suffer from depression. I actually have, at times, severe and unfounded worries, fears and phobias that can and do lead to 'tension', 'tightly-strung nerves', 'sensitivity', 'sadness' and 'frustration' BUT NOT 'clinical' depression.
Nardil has been pretty good so far, 2 full weeks in. The side effects have been minimal and I've been able to up my dose to 90mg (30mg x 3 times per day). (note, this in not recommended but it can be done with strict attention to diet and with no taking of cold'n'flu meds with pseudoephedrine and no seretonin-affecting pain killers such as Tramadol). I'm pretty comfortable in 'mild' social interactions, and work at the moment.
IF NARDIL PROVES TO BE INEFFECTIVE in dealing with my social dysfunction(s) in the workplace I WILL consider trying PARNATE, etc.
Cheers and best wishes.
Phil
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