Posted by Hunk20 on May 21, 2010, at 21:19:07
In reply to Re: f*ck*d family » Hunk20, posted by Phillipa on May 21, 2010, at 19:58:22
The worst but still the best time of my life.
Nardil makes me see, understand you know.
Had a conversation with my dad and my brother.. they kinda live in a different world. They are far away from me.
I tell my brother that i almost died from this epiphany and i am fighting for my life and he answered "but you have to make some decisions soon" meaning getting into a job and have a lucrative career.F*ck that f*ck the money and f*ck these half dead two people who have no heart you know. They just stumble sh*t and dont even know how sick they are and how sick they made me.
Its real heavy for me to not be depressed, because i see everything now. Nardil blew denial completly away. Got enough to do to heal myself and they seem hopeless to me.
I need all my strength for this now.
Kinda gotta give them up.
On the other hand i have stripper girl and i been completly open and honest with her.. and shes propably coming over soon:)
Hope to feel another bit of real love again soon(not the tainted, fake kind.. i didnt know anything else prior to this epiphany).she must have a real good heart because otherwise she wouldnt have dealt with this. Im hoping the best. You know you open yourself completly and the people that are bad for you go away by themselves..
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