Posted by Techno'n'PillBottles on May 2, 2010, at 3:52:25
In reply to Re: balancing creativity and medication. » linkadge, posted by morganator on May 1, 2010, at 23:22:50
Hey y'all, thank you for all the responses, you guys are awesome. The bit about lamictal backs up the reasons I quit in the first place (the deadness). I was on 150mg. this time maybe i'll try a lower dose like 50mg. I do OK without it, but the mania has been coming around, and without the fun crazy creative times, just anxiety that's hard to cope with and insomnia. I've never tried anything like lithium or zyprexa, just lamactil, SSRIs and what I'm currently taking. I want to take lamactil and trazodone INSTEAD of welbutrin and seroquel because both make me feel like crap physically and I suspect they are having some bad mental side effects but for the moment my doc thought it best to make gradual switches. By the way, does anyone have their doctor looking at you like they're mad or think you're stupid when you suggest treatment options to them instead of just mindlessly following their every recomendation?
some thoughts on things being discussed:
I have done some (actually A LOT of) "expirimenting" with many different illicit drugs and the conclusion that i have come to is this: the beginning of any love affair with a bad drug starts with creativity, fun, happiness etc. and spirals downward into worse deadness than most prescriptions will likely cause, and with all the imbalances of a quality bipolar, depression, psychosis whatever(except for maybe LSD and such hahaha). I quit doing any drugs because of that and I will promptly hit myself in the face with a brick if I go back to it.When I first started seroquel and enjoyed the "high" (or low) from it I would force myself to stay awake and make music and I came up with some pretty good stuff, but after so long I just hate that feeling and have no desire to do that anymore. I'm trying to switch to trazodone for sleep.
Linkadge: I listened to your song you posted the link to. Good start. if you want some tips and more tools shoot me an email at algaethescum@gmail.com (algae is my music name)
BOB12: I'm so sad to hear about the tinnitus. I have some hearing damage from sleepless nights between a pair of headphones and every time I hear ringing in my ears I feel like my world is ending. I would love to hear some of your music if you don't mind sharing. it would make my day to hear something from somebody on here.
Phillipa: to have someone take the time to listen to music and comment back about it means the world to alot of us musicians, you are very kind.
If anyone wants to hear a bit of my music go to www.soundcloud.com/algae. it's weird and different but its got some good beats. and as far as anyone knowing who I am from that, I don't care. anyone who talks to me for ten minutes knows I'm a crazy bastard anyway.
THANK YOU ALL for such quick and helpful responses. I'm so so so glad to find people I can relate to.atypical bipolar. delayed sleep phase syndrome.
current meds: welbutrin sr 100mg, seroquel xr 150mg at night. trazodone 50/100mg (just started)
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