Posted by qbsbrown on April 4, 2010, at 14:02:01
In reply to Re: Trileptal, why do you do this to me?, posted by qbsbrown on April 4, 2010, at 13:24:57
Or, I could try to go work a mindless job that i might be able to handle, such as at a restaurant, do my taper, and have money saved for ect. I'm sick of conversations, things repeating in my head, hearing me texting people, what i text, what they text, repeat over and over again. Just look at my phone, and i will hear what i just texted the last person i texted.
You can see why i want to get away from technology and people) Pre ect, this was WAY worse, especially hearing me telling people, drs, all day long, explaining what i was experiencing. And the intrusive images. I would have to literally say out loud, don't talk to him/her, or when i'd see the intrusive images, i'd say, don't show me that.Obviously a lot of PTSD from this whole experience.
If this were pre ect, and pre re-introduction of drugs, you and i would be having many conversations in my head Ed. And what you would say to me, would repeat over and over, and i would hear what i would write or say before i said it.
I'm glad it's calmed, but i want it gone. It's tough to remember what it was like to be sane, like my whole life, and it's sickening to get used to these phenomenea.
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