Posted by bulldog2 on April 2, 2010, at 16:52:43
In reply to I doubt I will ever fully recover, posted by linkadge on April 2, 2010, at 14:08:08
> I am just being honest with myself. I don't think I will ever fully recover. I don't have the same brain I started with 10 years ago when I got myself onto this ride of psychiatric drugs.
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> LinkadgeThat is probably true and i know that is true for me...I have a somewhat similar pattern of treating myself..Find a combo and it might be a good one and than stop six weeks later due to fear of the meds...Tend to cycle around a lot with different combos but never commit for the long term...
However there is one major difference..I do know the meds probably have made some brain changes..But I also admidt that I would not have healed on my own..I just have to observe some of my unmedicated family members to see the awful truth..So I had some periods where I felt good on drugs...no shame about that...
The awful truth is that many of us are born with mental illness that will not heal on its own and the meds out there are a bit archaic and behind the rest of modern medicine..Probably because modern medicine started later on mental illness..So that's life..The best thing I can do for myself is medicate now and than so I have a period of semi remission...So just cycle some decent combos now and than and don't beat yourself up about it.
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