Posted by GreenP on February 24, 2010, at 20:29:34
In reply to Experiences: Nardil + Cannabis, Caffeine, Nicotine, posted by Nardilcopter on December 14, 2009, at 14:48:27
>>>Cannabis: I can't smoke anymore. Doing so leads to what I can only describe as an "anxiety headache." It's a feeling of intangible mental unrest and agitation, accompanied by a hollow, burned out kind of feeling in my head. It's an annoyance more than anything, and doesn't seem to impair my ability to think, but it no longer energizes me. Instead, it leaves me feeling slow and frazzled for hours afterword.
>>>Nicotine: Smoking cigarettes makes me feel instantly sick. It's almost a feeling reminiscent of what you'd get after downing a bucket of double-deep-fried chicken to your face. My head feels hot with a spotty, dull pain. The smell and taste are repulsive. The rush is uncomfortable and anxiety-ridden, and destroys my focus. Recovering from all of this takes about an hour.
>>>Caffeine: Caffeine, while not downright intolerable, increases anxiety levels slightly and otherwise doesn't do much at all. The all-day energy boost from drinking cup after cup has been replaced by a brief lift, followed by a mild jittery feeling which lasts for hours. Obviously I no longer combine this with nicotine, as the cumulative effect amounts to disgust.
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Ahh I'm like really confused because that's my reaction to those things now... and I'm not on Nardil yet... Is my brain fried? I'm waiting to go on the Nardil, will start it in 5 days. I'm starting to get really worried that I shouldn't. I'm so confused!
:/Furthermore, this posting made me think a lot about my own experiences with drugs. Marijuana made me paranoid since I was about 16, but when I was 20 I started doing it everyday anyway because I'm an idiot, did it everyday for about 2 years straight. Once I stopped I was kinda a changed person. I had always had anxiety, and social anxiety in certain situations, but after being on a bad trip for two years straight, I couldn't talk to people the way that I used to. Now it's 2 years later and I'm still socially awkward and that's part of the reason I'm going on Nardil in the first place. Am I just pushing my brain too much? Is this a really bad idea?!
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