Posted by floatingbridge on November 23, 2009, at 17:39:47
In reply to Re: Why do I feel suicidal? To Floatingbridge, posted by Meltingpot on November 23, 2009, at 16:07:36
> Hi FB,
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> Thanks for the advice. I was seeing a therapist but that finished last year. The NHS only give you a course of therapy and then that's your lot. I'm reluctant to pay out money (privately) for something that didn't really help me long term.For about two years, I saw a therapist who was supportive, kind, and I really liked her. We got no where, really. Most therapy has been unhelpful. (CBT helped, along w/ a dose of DBT.) However, my new therapist is different, and 'things' are moving along fast. Will I be cured? I doubt that's even a viable question for me--but I function better, and my pain (depression and anxiety) have gone down--.
However, in reference to a discussion on another thread, I clearly have psychological components to my depression. I think, though, CBT and DBT based therapies can be of help to many, despite cause of depression or anxiety.
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> I am off all medication (apart from the Zyprexa), I'm stopping it for three months in the hope that it will work again on restarting it (but I don't hold out a lot of hope). The psychiatrist (who I am seeing privately) is going along with this, well she can't really do much else apart from go along with it. I have been worst since coming off medication so I know that I just have to get through the end of the year and then I can start back on antidepressants (although that is not going to be a bundle of fun either, with all of the start up anxiety I get)This sounds grueling--how difficult for you--I'm sorry.
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> I really want to try everything I can for this depression/anxiety/whatever it is. I want to try a full course of ECT simply because I haven't tried it but all of the psychiatrists I've seen wouldn't recommend it for me.I'm curious as to their objections. Also, I'm sorry rTMS failed you.
>I'm not sure what my options are now. I keep wondering about Deep Brain Stimulation (I'm fixated on that at the moment) but there is no way I'd ever get on a trial for it. Besides, I'd need some encouragement in order to do it. Right now I don't have anyone encouraging me.
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> That's what I need at the moment, hope and encouragement.
>Your pdoc does not support your idea on deep brain stimulation?
I feel that if you have in memory a good baseline, (that you remember enjoying things), you will find a way. Right now, you are probably at a nadir, being off all meds.
(Warning: next paragraph contains advice.) I'm wondering if you have tried any sort of group therapy or support therapy. The facilitator would be key. I have been in groups that were unendurable. Yet the right group helped me significantly. There is nothing worse, I feel, than being even further isolated by an illness that many people cannot comprehend. The few groups that worked did so by giving me hope and encouragement and camaraderie.
hugs,
fb
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