Posted by Katgirl on November 21, 2009, at 9:54:50
In reply to Re: Why do I feel suicidal? » Meltingpot, posted by SLS on November 19, 2009, at 17:09:20
I know when I was "horrifically" suicidal, meaning that is all I could think about every second of the day, it was very biochemical. rTMS stopped that. Now, I can get what I call situationally suicidal. Like, "Well what is the point with all this". But this is definitely a "thought" thing. In other words now if I get to a bad space in my head about it, I can let go of it (sometimes not as quickly as I would like, but I can.) I guess what I'm saying is that when I was biochemically suicidal, the only thing that was going to help that was biochemical intervention (in my case rTMS since unfortunately, the medications/withdrawals were all making me suicidal!!) However, now when I go into a pit, I can get myself back out of it. I can use some of the "tools" I've learned etc. I don't know if this makes any sense or is at all helpful. My thoughts and prayers are still with you!!
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