Posted by bulldog2 on July 17, 2009, at 18:42:44
In reply to Re: Euphoric high on first trail w/NARDIL .. you t » bleauberry, posted by UGottaHaveHope on July 17, 2009, at 0:44:33
> I wonder though, are you still well? I mean, I know the euphoric stuff is a whimper now, but is there depression? I'm trying to get a grasp on whether you are nondepressed but lacking the euphoric high, or whether some depression has returned. What do you think? If you had to choose to remain where you are now and be thankful for it, or to be the way you were before Nardil, which is better?
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> I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING LATELY. HAD SOME JOB CHANGES WHICH TRIGGERED ANXIETY, WHICH TRIGGERED DEPRESSION. NOW I FEEL NO ANXIETY JUST DEPRESSION. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS LIKE BEFORE TAKING NARDIL. I'VE BEEN TAKING NARDIL FOR TWO YEARS.
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> 3. The dose might have to go higher. I'VE BEEN TAKING BETWEEN 30-45 MG FOR TWO YEARS. I'VE BEEN AT 45MG FOR EIGHT WEEKS, AND NOW HAVE GONE UP TO 75MG THIS WEEK TO SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN THE FINAL MONTH.
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> 4. Maybe the euphoric effect is gone forever, a nice memory, but the rest of life will have to be viewed as a blessing to at least be free of the dark place you came from?
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> I'VE GOT TO CHANGE MY THOUGHT PATTERNS FOR THAT TO HAPPEN.
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> THANKS FOR YOUR WONDERFUL HELP!I'm beginning to think my depression is reactive. You mention thought patterns. Just something that gives me a hint of what my mind sees as a positive development sends me into euphoria. On the other hand any thing that I see as negative sends me into a downward spiral. So one would think I have the necessary neurotransmitters to feel well.
On the other hand certain chemicals keep me on a more positive keel so that I am more likely to interpret events in a more positive light. So try and figure out this situation.
So I have the necessary neurotransmitters to feel good but I need certain chemicals to have access to the positive reward thought patterns???
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