Posted by meltingpot on May 2, 2009, at 7:29:33
In reply to Re: Poop out remedies - success stories, posted by Zana on April 27, 2009, at 16:06:58
Hi Zana,
It's really good of you and the others to even go out of your way to try and offer advice. I do really appreciate it.
Age 24 to 29 - Started taking tricyclic Prothiaden 75mg and it worked very well and very quickly. Dont look back. Prothiaden seemed to give me a new lease of life, I can honestly say I never felt better. I felt cured and grateful that I had at last found something to help.
Age 29 prothiaden seemed to stop working as well.
Age 29 to 31 20mg of Seroxat Seroxat worked wonderfully. Get a really good job at IBM meet my current boyfriend. I was very happy at this point.
Age 31 Decided to come off Seroxat whilst it was still helping as I didn't want to become tolerant to it and I wanted to see if I would do ok without drugs.
Age 31 to 35 No meds and depression free apart from the odd day here and there.
Age 35 Had just been given a rise at IBM, was going to the gym regularly and still seeing the same boyfriend we still get on ok, no real life stressors going on. Start feeling like something is wrong. Vague aches and pain in my spine, jaw constantly tense, keep feeling cold. Start having bad dreams, Some paranoia at work. Having problems concentrating, feeling very tense all of the time. After work going home and just going to bed. Think maybe I just need a holiday so book a holiday to Portugal. However, part of me is worried about going on holiday. Keep myself distracted by planning the holiday, booking tickets etc. The morning of the flight, I feel awful, I want the plane to crash as Im not sure Im going to be able to keep up a front during the week. We get to Portugal and I feel no sense of pleasure about being on holiday, I feel suicidal, weak, disorientated and very scared. Spend most of the week just walking, walking and walking and feeling very scared and suicidal.
Get back from the holiday and from 2001 to 2003 go through the following medications. During this period Im still working at IBM and there are no major stresses in my life apart from my depression.
Seroxat 20mg (approx 1 month) Extreme anxiety, Suicidal thoughts, pacing up and down.
Sertraline 50mg slight lift in mood but again anxiety bad, still suicidal thoughts.
Prozac and lithium (1 month) Slight lift in mood but still a lot of anxiety, still suicidal thoughts.
Prothiaden 300mg and prozac (approx 1 month). No improvement.
Effexor (3 months) 150mg Still feel anxious on it although not as anxious as on SSRIs, no lift in mood.
Mirtazapine 15mg (about a month) Extreme anxiety.
Lamictal (3 months) Dont feel as though Im taking anything.
Prothiaden Bad anxiety and suicidal thoughts.
Nardil (a month) Anxiety not so bad but still feel depressed and very detached on it.
Age 37 am still managing to do my job at IBM Dr Patel puts me on 40mg of Seroxat and within 4 days I feel as though Ive been forgiven, anxiety goes, suicidal thoughts stop, start wanting to do pleasurable activities again. Start enjoying life. Im still at IBM but Im actually starting to enjoy my work again. Still seeing the same boyfriend but start going out more socialising. Go on holidays to Goa and Vancouver, even start having piano lessons.
Age 39 Still at IBM, no changes in my life but suddenly start to feel depressed again, apathetic and not enjoying the things I had been enjoying, also start to feel uneasy and edgy again although not suicidal. Later on that year Im made redundant from IBM.
Age 39 to 40 Trying adding lamictal, T3 hormone, buspar, mirtazapine to Seroxat (give each one about a months trial) but no change really. Still not feeling suicidal but feel depressed and not interested in anything. Start doing contract work to keep myself busy and start doing voluntary work at Cancer Research on a Saturday to keep myself busy. Purchase a flat but dont really feel excited about it.
Tried Cymbalta for about a month and very anxious on it for the whole month, stopped it.
Age 41 Psychiatrist put me on Lexapro which seemed to start helping after two weeks but I was still having some anxiety and tension on it and still didn't really feel as though I was enjoying life or looking forward much. However felt stronger within myself and had more motivation to work but didn't really enjoy the things I had been enjoying.
Age 42 (2008) Ianaged to get a good contract position at E-on, everything ok situation wise and have been working there since May. Around September the Lexapro seemed to stop working as well in that I started to have a lot of that horrible anxiety, very bad dreams, start to lack motivation at work. Tried switching back to Seroxat to no avail. Back on Lexapro feel as though Im getting worse, losing weight, pacing a lot, vomiting, on one occasion not sleeping for three nights.
Age 42 (2009) Feeling sucidal again, Zyprexa is helping with the anxiety but not the depression. Contract finishes with E-on end of February but to be honest by this time I felt relieved.
Present day - Have been taking clomipramine now for approximately eight weeks, still having sucidal thoughts, sleep is ok and anxiety seems to have gone but I get very tired easily and am spending a lot of time sleeping. I am very worried that the SSRIs have completely stopped working for me and that somehow, somewhere along the line this depression has become completely resistent to medication. Zyprexa still helps with the anxiety though.
Thanks.........Denise
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