Posted by Meltingpot on March 30, 2009, at 8:17:43
In reply to Re: Anyone ever had a response to AD after 4 weeks? » Meltingpot, posted by SLS on March 26, 2009, at 15:26:51
Hi Scott,
I'm not sure about there being a blip improvement the first week. I think any med gives some improvement (the first week) when compared to no meds. On no meds, I feel totally empty, flat, weak, anxious etc.
I know I had a lot of anxiety during the day and then the usual slight improvement in mood in the evening.
I'm now at week five on 100mg. I can tell I'm still not right because when I'm ok I actually take a bit of care about what I'm going to wear in the morning but the lower I am putting something nice on is too much hassle. I don't have any motivation at all and am feeling anxious and guilty about the fact that I have no motivation. The only good thing is I'm sleeping and I have more energy than when unmedicated.
I'm still having sucidal thoughts still (although I try to push them out of my mind and tell myself it's not an option, it kind of feels like the most rationale thing to do). It's just that I've spent 8 years fighting this thing (whatever it is), I had two good years on Seroxat 40mg between 2003 and 2005 and since then I feel like I'm just getting worst and becomming more resistent. I don't think there is a drug I haven't tried which makes me feel more hopeless. I was thinking ECT but then I've been told ECT doesn't work for my kind of depression and then I also see Bleuberry's comment about people relapsing from it after a month. Just seems so hopeless right now.I do have the Zyprexa which does still help a bit but it only works for me if I take 10mg every five days. Is this ok to do? I'm so scared that I might unintentionally do something to stop even that drug from helping as this drug is priceless to me. If I take 10mg every day then I feel too spaced out all the time and lower doses taken regularly don't seem to help that much right now.
I've tried Nardil about three times in the past (only for a month) and although it seemed to help the anxiety, again I still didn't feel like it was doing that much for depression. I still didn't feel like I was enjoying life on it. When the Seroxat worked I actually felt like I was enjoying life again, I started going out socialising and even started having piano lessons and went on holiday. Then it went and pooped out.
Would Parnate or Ensam help me if Nardil didn't? I was even thinking about perhaps trying the combination you are on but I know you suffer from Bipolar and I don't.
I intend giving this clomipramine a good eight weeks but I just have this feeling I'll go back after the eight weeks is up (in about four weeks time) and she will just increase the dose as you can go up to 250mg. Therefore, I feel as though I should start doing it myself before I go to see her.
Denise
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