Posted by meltingpot on March 2, 2009, at 11:47:39
In reply to Re: To Scott (SLS), posted by SLS on March 1, 2009, at 16:10:57
Hi Scott,
I was feeling awful during the day (yesterday)really anxious and suicidal and then in the evening I felt more peaceful which sometimes happens to me. I had to take a Zyprexa last night otherwise I would have felt the same today.
I still feel suicidal but not in a desperate, got to do it now way but in, maybe do it later, way.
I'm not sure whether or not to persist with the Clomipramine, I was taking half a 75mg pill. Like I said, in the evening I felt slightly better (mood wise) but still a bit sort of weak.
I have tried both Remeron and Effexor and was anxious on both of them but then I'm anxious anyway with or without drugs. I think that the anxiety comes from feeling listless, foggy headed and not having any motivation or focus.
I am worried right now because over the past 8 years I've always felt like I've had a sort of a crutch with SSRIs but now I feel like that crutch has been yanked from my hand.
My mood hasn't been this bad for ages, I see a private psychiatrist on Saturday to see if she might have any ideas on what to do but I can't see what she can prescribe when I've pretty much tried everything already.
The only medication that gives me relief from the total feeling of dispair is Zyprexa. I don't like taking it though because the day after taking it I feel really detached and disconnected (in a calm way) and it's not until about 2 days after that I start to feel more like myself again. It's always been the case.
Denise
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