Posted by JadeKelly on February 22, 2009, at 16:59:33
In reply to Re: Where the he** is babblemail? SCOTT » JadeKelly, posted by SLS on February 22, 2009, at 5:56:21
> Hi Jade.
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> You damned well better not be going anywhere, Jade! Are you leaving us?
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> > Your like a Doctor. Is that what you go to school for? A Psych Doc I hope? My gosh! You'd never need another patient!! I don't know why I don't know this. Please do tell. Now I'm dying of curiosity. I'm thinking of going back also but just for masters.
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> I am interested in just about anything that exists, along with that which does not. Biology is one of my biggest interests.
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> It was my passionate desire to become a clinical medical doctor. I considered it a calling. I wanted to heal people. I knew that I would be good at it. The severity and chronicity of my affective illness ripped this dream away from me. My doctors told me that even if they were able to find a treatment that worked to have me emerge out of depresion, the stressful demands placed on the system by the schooling and internship would probably cause me to relapse. I mourned and grieved. I was 32 at the time. I don't like to let the thought of going back to school for medicine enter my head. I am considering very seriously returning to school to restart a biology curriculum. If I end up anywhere in medicine, it would perhaps be as a Ph.D. in an investigational setting.
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> There's more, but that's enough for now.
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> > PS-I was wondering do you also get that little bit of tourettes every now and then with your Parnate?
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> With Parnate, one can experience occasional myclonic jerks, especially just as one falls asleep. There is also hyperreflexia that can look like myoclonic jerks.
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> What exactly are you experiencing? Do you vocalize? Do you have tics? Where?
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> - Scott
>Hi Dr.Scott,
Ha, I decided what I wrote here would be better for bmail.
In your career, you would do what you seem to love, Biological research. "Investigational" research, that does sound intriguing. Maybe you'll research some other diciplines as well, maybe to back up some of your theories? (hint, hint). I'm happy to note that you've managed to retain your extraordinary gifts; your curiosity,intelligence, memory, and ability to articulate those clearly, after all your med trials. It gives me hope that most of my cognitive abilities will return, and will not be harmed by Parnate. I'd like to at least remember that my sunglasses are on my head. Its so frustrating >:-(
Now whats the rest? You ALWAYS do that!
Now to answer the real reason for your post; I said I'm slow, not stupid, lol. PS-my as*
Ah-well first I was teasing about the Tourettes,(making fun of you) which I'm realizing was innappropriate. However, I've had a few occasions where I'll immediately repeat myself, almost a stutter, but a full repetition. I'll just list those types of effects as you seem interested.
1. Occasional verbal repetition, seems to be fading, can forget what I JUST said
2. Occasional myoclonic jerks, during the day, Like my elbow will jerk outward
I'd have to find out more about hyper-reflexia3.Tourettes and Tics, I think its more sudden jerks with me, I'm not aware of any tics
4.When you say vocalize, do you mean as in not being able to control what I say, Tourettes type?
No, I don't have that. I forget a lot of what I say. Hoping that will return.5. Had a nightmare shortly after taking my morning meds, fell back asleep. NOTHING like first one. (thought dreaming was over)
6. Moods seem dose related, which I don't like, but severe depression is gone and I feel good/great most of the time. Thank You God.
7. There is NOTHING that would cause me to consider d/cing this combo. I found it strange that my "mini" 10 day remission was NOT dose related. It was 24 hours a day. PDoc says there's no explaining the brain.
PDoc is very surprized at the aount of progress, 80% remission I'd say, and the short time it took. I had to remind him I'd been on it 3 months when I got there. He wasn't impressed with my dose. He immediately, every two weeks, raised my doses up to 80MG, almost as if nothings happening before that. Also I'm on 60mg Ritalin, he raised that quickly also. SO:
80mg Parnate (split 2xday)
60mg Ritalin (split 2xday)
Klonopin tapering off by .5 per week-don't need.
Last appt I told him I feel great, no need to change anything. I may thogh as tapering off Klonopin. May want to note that considering recent debates, I was constantly forgetting my klonopin while on Parnete. I wouldn't be surprized if there were no s/e's on Parnate to just stop or taper quickly. I know what your thinking, NO. I would but I don't dare mess with my beloved remission.
~Jade
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