Posted by azalea on October 30, 2008, at 9:31:22
In reply to Jedi, Azalea, Nadezda, posted by JNew12 on October 27, 2008, at 2:39:21
Glad to hear you're on your way to getting better!
> Hey, you three!
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> It's real late at night and I just wrote Phillipa a message, but the first part of it might as well be addressed, me to you three.
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> I want to thank you for calling me out and telling me how dangerous of a mix of nardil and adderall was. With pills I always took a stance like I was invincible, shoot I used to eat whole fentanyl patches. The mix I stopped once and I had a party w/ people I did not see in three years and wanted energy but had a very bad reaction, even though not a hypertensive crisis it easily could of happened I was going to save them, but now I am thinking I should flush them.
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> I always be fascinated with medicine, that is why this place interests me, but I don't think i truly respected pills, I thought I could do whatever I want, I can not count the time I played doctor. Matter of fact I used to Opiate addict maybe that why I never really learned to have a normal doctor patient relationship also because the trust was never there.
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> Shoot, I was happy if I came home with some scheduled, I probably knew of every drug to ask for that could potentate and make the other drugs stronger, and I did this mostly by lying. But, I am on suboxone now and through with addiction, and having to go from one doctor to another lying to maintain it (thank god).
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> Thanks for making me realize that there is responsibility on the patient too, I never really understood that. But, now I am suffering from major depression,social anxiety, and bad stomach problems. I could never understand why the most I could keep a doc was a month before. I am for the first time realizing that I need to tell my doctors everything including stuff I don't want to like addiction, and also tell each doctor about each doctor, and stop scoring the same meds from them each even if they are only xanax, or klonopins.
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> My main goals is not worrying about getting high anymore, but better.
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> I also realize I need to stop doing things because people have done it on the net and lived through it, i guess that me wanting to play doctor again.
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> I got four doctors now, the most I ever had and really want to feel well for once in my life, and I hope with my new attitude it will happen.
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> Thanks.
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