Posted by streetsk8er794 on September 17, 2008, at 23:17:20
In reply to Re: PLEASE HELP ME!!! (I'm Desperate), posted by Polarbear206 on September 17, 2008, at 14:45:21
Polarbear,
I definitely believe that my depression is a direct result of my long term klonopin use. I've been on 2 mg a day for over 6 months. Before the klon, I was not really depressed. Depression seems to only be a problem when I'm in active addiction, or on any medication.
In jail, where I got no meds obviously, I got to really analyze myself without any drug (prescribed or legal), to really analyze myself.
The ONLY reason things like going to work, or getting visits, or talking on the phone were such a chore, was because of my social anxiety. I did not find it hard to get out of bed. I COULD enjoy things.
It all boils down to this: I cant just quit klonopin cold turkey, and I need the stimulants to counter the sedative/unmotivating side effects of the klonopin in order to function at work.
I just ran for about 3 miles, and I feel so motivated, less anxiety, more confident, more relaxed. I will keep running daily, but I dont know what to do about my meds.
The stims have made me break out with pimples everywhere (not good for confidence), made me lose tons of weight (I used to weigh a healthy 175 lbs, now I weigh 138), and made my OCD significantly worse. But, they have helped me tremendously to stay sober, do well at work, and get more things done in general.
The klonopin was great for anxiety at first, and its still helping somewhat; but I dont like how its creating depression.
Maybe i should just wean down to 1 mg klon per day, keep the stim dose, and add an anti-depressant like Lexapro or Nardil.
And yes, I have been looking into bipolar II, I'm just not sure I have it yet. I need to do some more research.
All I know is that my P-Doc appt is coming up soon, and I NEED to know what to tell him. I do not feel like waiting yet again another month to try something.
Input.
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