Posted by Fivefires on July 10, 2008, at 14:44:21
In reply to Re: California Rocket Fuel + » Fivefires, posted by SLS on June 26, 2008, at 4:49:26
Hey Scott ... it's okay.
I've been so very sick, I've been 'edgy', ya' know? I apologize for the way I've behaved.
Of course I respect your boundaries. I've known you a long time and should understand ever better. I'm sorry.
I began Effexor-XR, but alone, titrating up four weeks. Began first week 75mg, second 150mg, third (now) 225mg, and next Weds 300mg. This 300mg will be more than I've ever taken in the past, think due to fear of going any higher because of the long long thread about all the scary things about Effexor-XR.
No hx of anything in my fam' or origin or my fam'.
Wonder why pdoc not adding in anything as this was my concern.(?) Augmenting.
Right now, at this moment, I'm having 'way overwhelming anxiety' (I always had a decrease in anxiety with Effexor-XR in the past ? and didn't have a lot of bad side effects as many others reported. I've lost weight; 12 lbs maybe, since tried Nardil, stopped, then shortly thereafter began Effexor-XR, giving it another try, still no appetite. I can report a bit of a prob' w/ depth perception. Of course I am 'on edge' still.
I lie in bed most of the day and my mind races w/ ways to get my life back.
I wonder if I'm truly dieing of a broken heart or something. Had two bad panic attacks w/ hx of heart dz in fam', so aspirin in bedstand, but took Xanax and the crushing pain was relieved. When lieing in bed I feel 'heavy', but safe.
Right now, myy hands and arms are stiff and trembling.
Did I say Eff-XR never caused an increase in anxiety/nervousness in the past, but always a decrease? I was able to decrease benzodiazepines quite a lot. If not said, reason I'd always quit was, too scared to go above 225 because of the long, long thread and reports of its dangers.
I wish didn't have to go now; but must lie down. Shaking and breathing difficult.
I thot pdoc would augment it with something, but feel he's awaiting I to decide 'what'.(???) I lack knowledge of pharmocokinetics.
Pls understand, very sick, very alone, w/o good healthcare ...
I am on Xanax2mg 3-4x a day, Xanax-XR 1 a.m., levothyroxine .75, and Provigil 150-200mg, besides Effexor-XR.
I am also on pain management meds for an injury to my c-s-pine.
What do you think about augmenting?
With what?
Again, of course, I respect your boundaries.
I've known you for a long time and care about you and your freedom to do as you feel is best for you. Guess felt hurt, but NEVER MIND THIS. It's okay. It was an 'incorrect reaction'; having a lot of this lately. Like pouting like a child; which I feel I am sometimes. I've really lost myself here, more than ever, more than first came to PB.
Hope you, all, are well.
most sincerely, 5f
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