Posted by bleep on July 7, 2008, at 17:48:44
In reply to Re: Please Help! Are there any meds left? » bleep, posted by nfc on July 7, 2008, at 8:36:31
Thanks! About the psychotic symptoms, I'm Not sure if I do really...sometimes I def think so, but my pdoc says I describe too many things at once and we need to focus on one thing at a time. Again, I am too freaked out by APs so the instant I put it in my mouth I am obsessing about death or NMS...I already have a strange preoccupation/terrifying fear of death. Years of panic attacks (ESP. around that time of the month) did not help this as I walk around utterly convinced I am going to die. I seem to be developing into a hypochondriac here lately. Maybe I won't die but I have this or that illness. I have felt disconnected and unreal lately, like maybe I don't even exist. I've read that meds can worsen that feeling. So for now I take maybe one .5 mg Ativan a day if even that (though I am prescribed 3 a day if needed (because I am scared of being a drug addict I rarely take them) and am cutting my topamax down to 25 mg 2 x day because lately I cannot remember anything and I feel like a total moron/can't think straight. I see my doc Wednesday. He will offer little if any solace. I have no idea what to even say to him really.
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