Posted by Fivefires on May 17, 2008, at 3:19:37
In reply to Re: NARDIL DAY 1. KNEW WOULD LOSE SELF, posted by Phillipa on May 15, 2008, at 11:50:53
Did I say I called NAMI who called county next and they got me appt? Went. They checked BP and to my request be inpatient said no.
I did call pharmacy Scott re decrease and titrate up more slowly, thinking score these red tabs, but was told I shouldn't because it could 'increase side effects'??? So, I suggested to the N.P., not pdoc, I saw today, I not be on 3xaday but 2xaday for this first week.
I've awakened at 1a. Must have collapsed into bed after appt. I can hear a motorcycle off in the distance. I'm much too isolated out here. I checked my doors(have two-one iron) and they were unlocked, so seems nothing is missing, but is odd I'd leave this unlocked in just having ended relationship and he may be angry.
Daughter went w/ me today and observed and was livid to say the least at the way I was treated. I mean, the way i was 'not really treated at all'. She said to the N.P., 'look at her, can't you see she's out of it', and as I'd suspected would happen, she said 'how would I know? I've never seen her before!' Hate it when happens.
When we left, daughter was like 'don't make another appt, your outta here. This place CR*P!' It felt good she cared, and my children are all pretty much NOT lacadaisical or indifferent to an issue important, so I suspect this daughter along w/ husb and other two of mine, will be trying to help me do what I'll write below or keep trying to use other ins. get to Scottsdale.
Any1 heard of Sierra Tucson? It's got all kinds of programs, one being dual, but not CD & behavioral health, the other program being pain management. There is a possibility, if my PCP can say I've not found Pain Management I need here successful, which I haven't, epidurals in c-spine haven't worked, and I need to go out of network, I could go there. Wherever Kath is I need to her head up the 'vigil' 'cuz maybe that would bring me back to life.
So ... the N.P. today only really said 'you can get off of it if you want. You don't meet inp. criteria because you're not suicidal'.
sos diff' mid of night, 5f
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