Posted by ace on May 11, 2008, at 23:55:29
In reply to Re: Nardil- The best AD ever......., posted by Fivefires on May 11, 2008, at 0:49:22
> Hi Ace. I'm 5f.
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> I've been w/o an AD for nearly a year and am in a full blown major depression ... seems like months. Just lie in bed. Feel like am literally dying.I'm am sorry to here this, and I can empathise- it is clear that you are suffereing a clinical depression and you need immediate help to extricate yourself from this. At this point in time, I would personally not 'push' yourself to do anything other than seek treatment. I would say lie in bed, and don't force yourself to do things- other than, as I stated, seek help ASAP
At the moment these words probably mean little, but there is hope. I have seen again and again that the most chronic of depressions can be releaved, and you can enjoy life now. Try to have hope, but don't force yourself to try and feel it.
All abandon as think I seem attn, but this is so real.
I'm sorry, I don't understand this statement...
Diagnoses PTSD, borderline, atypical.
I personally feel don't worry to much about these 'labels', just pinpoint your feelings, and look at these...
(?) Long time back bit of help from SSRIs tho black holes lost cognitive awareness life value and unowhat occurred, tricyclics just nothing really, and I guess most effective was Effexor-XR, which have been on prob' 5x, each time reacting a little differently. No to its counterpart. Recently PCP upset at pdoc not agreeable to any AD for me, gave me Wellbutrin-XL and the nervousness was atrocious.I couldn't understand that all, but basically it sounds as if you have had inadequate treatment again and again.
Anxiety is a very major issue for me. All I'm on is a benzo,
This is good. I am a big fan of benzo's. I would definately stay put on this. If you feel too higher your dose for a while, I would not worry too much. Once you get well again, you can lower it, if needed.
tho' may be shuffling in a state hospital if not for Valium when suffered an insult to my nervous system in 2005 after an overwhelming life event. So, alone here, literally wasting away. See all this re: Nardil. Pharmacist tonight said 'in all yrs as pharmacist, ur only second I've ever written this for.
This doesn't suprise me. I wouldn't let that comment worry you but.
Inquired my med trials. When asked if I'd ever been tried on a combo therapy, seemed shocked when I said 'no'. I'ver seen a lot of pp here on them. I've heard of diff' ones. He said Wellbrutin-XL and Effexor-XR was a popular one.(?)There is so so so many combos you could try....however, i would feel it best that nardil be within the combo, as such...
I told him I'd heard fo Remeron and the prior. I am not psychotic. I am pretty highly cognitive. My body just seems to be giving up. I have a lot of love lost in the past five years; like 10pp. People believed loved me. Found diff'. Anyway, I want to see what yo say next here as the Nardil scrip is available to me Mon or Tue.
I am really sorry you have had these bad life experiences. It's not easy, but all i can say is hang in there. You don't sound psychotic to me at all, but I feel I can 'see' through your writing style, the emotions you are feeling The great thing, is that you are on Nardil.
I have been veryr reluctant re: it because, like I said, I am considered highly functioning. Althouh, no one has seen me lie here for these weeks on end now. Pdoc doesn't see it and I'm not sure he'd even believe it. I have always made sure I look as best as possible when walk out front door and take on the mindset I've driven a car and handled life for many yrs and cruise along as if nothing is wrong once out the door. When locked behind, I collapse again into bed. I cannot even awake now w/o Provigil. I am on SSD and had to get a food box Fri. My only support is a man w/ an illicit drug prob'; no I do not participate. I am very very careful not to abuse. But it's getting very hard. A terrible panic attack last eve; worse than ever experienced. Wonder try Nardil or push for a combo. Wonder maybe the other one, the other MAOI I see some may have mentioned as seeming to not create more anxiety, as this is a real important thing for me. Oh. Parnate. Yes. That's the one I'thinking of here. I will follow as you said you'd try get back here. Sometimes I can't open pute and read emails as the person above is here at night when I am scared to be alone. On way now.
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> tks 5f
OK, I feel you essential need treatment ASAP, as I stated many times. I would suggest Nardil with a fast titration, up to a maximum of 60mg within 2 week, if you can tolerate any s/effects. On top of that i would suggest you continue with Valium (or another benzo) at a dose required. The drug TRAMADOL can also be of benefit (on a short term basis). Also your anxiety may warrent a low dose anti-psychotic treatment, for a short period of time. Th AP can also facilitate a faster onset (in some cases) of Nardil.Also, it seems as if you need family and close friends around to listen to you, without offering endless advice and possibley telling you all the great things you have in life. Is it possible to speak to anyone about your problems with no censorship? I would certainly stay away from all illicit driugs an alcohol absolutely.
If things get too bad, I suggest ringing emergency. Let people know you feel this way. You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed about. You have 100% right to your feelings.
I really hope this helps in some way.
Just say to yourself 'hang-on', again and again. Even when you feel like you would rather dissapear.
Please let me know how you are. Nothing is a substitute for talking face to face with a loved one, but I also think it's great if you chat to others on this site- really wonderful people here.
And I think it's actually a great thing that you made the effort to post here.
My thoughts are with you,
Ace:)
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