Posted by your#1fan on March 24, 2008, at 22:56:28
guys, its late, im so sorry, there has been something that has happened. I cant tell it here, but its pretty serious. Anxiety has skyrocketted to a Red zone....
I dont feel like waking up, but i gotta to put on my "happy" mask, act like everything is ok. People are mean to me, i hate it, and im not playing a victem either, its just how i let people confrount me, i let them run over me. What has happened is (if you go on social, idenity crisis there) my mind is blank, i've drained myself of energy, mainly because of this new situation im in (confidencial).
I would do anything to just change my life. Right now im on Prozac 40mg, Xanax (right now its helping me through a crushing time), Zprexa, and Restoril 30mg -- at night
I dont know, im runned down, its like when your in track, you lose your energy during the run, thats what i feel. And the "good" feeling of life, is going too.
Plus lately my attention span has been horrible, i cant pay attention to conversation much. Like i said, my life is a bottem point right now (not depression) just idenity, where im going to go, how im going to do it.
I miss people, and times where i was myself and not someone else. But you got to know that when im myself, thats the time im more prone to people attacking me. So i can't be myself ever, logically speaking.
I just need support, and im going to get back on but i need help..........im slipping from a rope, pull it quick!
Prayer, logic, reality, and the right state of mind is the best.
dealing with pain is whats going to get you out of a sink whole.
I dont want to lose my idenity....but im slipping....hard. Whats going to happen next? i dont know. I've said enough and i think your pretty tired of hearing me type.
Good Night, too all listeners...
your#1fan
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