Posted by sometimesblue on March 4, 2008, at 12:14:29
In reply to PSYCHOSIS????? ANXIETY!!! OCD!!!HELP ME PLEASE!, posted by AMY II on February 27, 2008, at 23:16:10
Some of the symptoms you talk about, like the "squared, tiny" colors things, i experienced after have a bad withdrawal effect from a muscle relaxer...also the feeling that you're going crazy, hearing things...basically paranoya with hallucinations.
As far as the numbness in the back and legs...you said you tried ecstacy? Ecstacy [from what i learned] stays in your central nervous system [your spine or something] that may be messing with your nerves. I have an aherniated disc and I get the SAME exact feelings [numbness in my back, like just in a patch of my back, and my legs/thighs] the doctor told me it's the damaged nerve causing this.
The spacy floaty feeling sounds like a panic attack, not anxiety. I have had several full blown [horrible] panic attacks and suffered the same symptoms you describe. FYI: the worst attack was when I had that withdrawal episode, the withdrawal triggered the panic attack. And it was like a panic attack on steroids, I thought I was going to die or go crazy...I had audio hallucinations, I felt spacy, I didn't want to close my eyes because i saw colors and shapes and everytime I closed my eyes I thought I would die...
It seems to me [and I'm no expert of course] that whatever drug you tried has stayed with you. And the panic attacks/paranoya your having are side effects from it, as well as making the episode worse. But it's in no way psychosis...you seem very capable of describing what you feel and those suffering from psychosis are rarely able to describe it.
Also, I know you said you don't use anymore, but because everyone's body make-up is different, even the slightest exposure to MDMA could cause long lasting brain damage. Have you ever had a cat scan? There are also certain blood tests that can be done to detect brain damage or spinal infection. Maybe an MRI to determine if the nummbness is related to any spinal injury or aggrivation you've suffered. You may have a couple of things going on here.
I hope this bit of info helps...and you're not alone, I've been there myself and it's like stepping into hell...
-sb
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