Posted by your#1fan on February 28, 2008, at 0:19:16
In reply to Re: Devastating News » your#1fan, posted by Racer on February 27, 2008, at 23:49:00
I understand what you explained very well, about the liablity issue about losing his liscence as a doctor. And he knows, i stated to him MANY TIMES that i would not abuse stimulants. He said "im sorry but i cannot trust you", even if my mother concented saying "yes" he still could not do it.
Racer this is the most hardest day, i've had since my flipout in 2006. It was very hard today, it was like..........something that is so important and vital, and its gone untreated.
He will not even prescribe me Strattera, because i stated to him it does not work, i tried it for series of 6 weeks up to 40mg, which did not go well with Prozac. He told me many psychiatric medciations dont do well with "Prozac". But it has been the most wonderful Andidepressant that i have ever had, im not depressed at all, but im emotionally upset (i cant be depressed because Prozac blocks some emotions)
I then, in the last min of the session, he turned kind of "your on your own fan, good luck" i cant help you.....that was the most devestating, feeling of abandonment i ever had. My own psychiatrist......disowning me, because of reports of abuse (but that shouldnt make me look as a bad person, but it sure did in this case!) It was like dont let the door hit you in @ss after you walk out. It was a very draining, and decripling feeling i felt. I cried, got mad, i just couldnt take the fact, i was told "good luck, no medication", and "next patient please"
I have to ask you this, Will this stay on my Medical Doctumentation Record? (abuse of stimulants) for ever? i think it will. And when i do switch doctors, its going to be the same story over again. I hope not....:(
I am going to write a letter to all doctors that i see, that the amount of decripling stuff i do during the day AFFECTS my everyday living. They must well know this, and not say, nope, just do on your own. Im the WORST case of ADHD in probaly the whole state of Texas.
Yes i told him about the energy drinks, he said "well you would drink them with Dexedrine?" "yup you would, i cant trust you" I tried to argue and argue, NO! i would not! "im sorry fan, but i cannot trust you" GOD!
I came across in parts of my life, and found many people that take Adderall, and Dexedrine, and pfffff they abuse it, yet they get away with it. I can't. Im the one that was put on trial.
Im just sick of it! im going to proably have to go 2 years again, with no treatment. Whats next...a nerve breakdown?
Well thank you for your support Racer...and wish me luck because i have so many things to do, and so many things i worry about.
Its back to the Prozac/Xanax combination.
fan
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