Posted by seldomseen on January 20, 2008, at 8:57:06
In reply to Cycling on and off drugs - why do I do this?, posted by seldomseen on January 19, 2008, at 15:31:48
I am very lucky that I am in the ~1/3 of patients that respond to an SSRI - and I do respond, very well in fact.
I've been off and on prozac for the last 8 years. For the first 5 years I was very compliant. It's only been in the last 3 that I've been so squirrely with it.
Overall, I am not a stupid person. The difference in me on prozac vs. off prozac is dramatic. Not only that, but each time I stop, then resume prozac, the start up is not pleasant.
I guess I would like to think that with all the years of therapy and advances in my coping skills, insight into my own behaviour and change in cognitive awareness, that I don't need the drug anymore.
I think I want to be drug free, and lie to myself (continually evidentally) that I can be.
But I guess the drug + therapy combo is what is going to work for me.
You would think that with all my awareness of mental illness that I would welcome prozac therapy and be grateful for it. But right now I feel very weak and ashamed that I need it.
I guess that is the heart of the issue. That somehow I am not strong enough on my own.
Seldom.
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