Posted by polarbear206 on October 5, 2007, at 9:07:59
In reply to Re: dysphoric mania, posted by extremethings on October 4, 2007, at 18:34:04
> I've made an appointment to see my doctor Tuesday. I'm taking off of work to go- I say it like I feel guilty. I've always had a hard time taking care of myself, the right way. I have never come clean with my doctor- I trust her and I like working with her, but to be honest I've been afraid of the truth. I know what I should be doing, but it is like I can't stop, until I'm so miserable again that I have to or I'll kill myself. Then, I start to get help and as soon as I feel better, I begin to drift away, back into my own insanity. Thank you for being honest- I need to hear the truth, whether or not I want to. I know I need to come clean, that has been the hardest thing. And my husband and I, well we love smoking together. We've never not smoked together- 9 years, and I've been smoking since 12. And with my illness, my husband is great, most of the time. But that has been a long time coming- we both are learning how to understand me, communicate with me, and cope with the roller coster of intesnse emotions. I have to completely change the way I care for myself, and I dont know how.
I'm so glad that you made an appointment with your doctor. Facing you fears and the truth is a big step in the right direction. You and your doctor have to work as a team and you can't be a team player if your not honest with her. Taking care of yourself is your number one priority. Don't expect it to happen overnight, because it won't. You have to take baby steps, knowing that you have a long history of habitual substance abuse. I think you doctor will be proud of you for coming clean with her, and this will help tremendously with her plan of care and the next direction to take.Be Well
Polarbear
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