Posted by extremethings on October 2, 2007, at 12:05:14
In reply to Re: Dysphoric Mania, posted by MoparFan91 on February 22, 2005, at 21:05:21
I just have to say, never before have I read so many people, diagnosed with Bipolar, describe experiences exactly like mine. I have always wondered, what is wrong with me? So many Bipolar people, my father included (which is what I personally grew up knowing Bipolar to be) have euphoric, "good" feelings when manic, and experience a very separate, dark depression. I have always felt that when I have some of the best energy, close to what I know mania to be, I am so easily angered, with a strong hatred towards myself. I want to hurt myself- I have so many times. I would love to kill myself, but that would others so I can't. I'm stuck at those moments with the person I hate the most- me. And I just want to punish myself. I'm haunted by nightmares, my mind tortures me whether I am awake or able to sleep. I just thank God these moments don't last for ever. I couldn't last.
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