Posted by Amandafran on August 20, 2007, at 19:34:24
One of my big problems is obsessing. I obsess over EVERYTHING.Today I had said something to someone that my therapist had told me and it wasnt exactly as he told me...and he found out...but he wasnt mad at me...but I feel horrible. It wasnt anything major we had been talking in session about my cousin who I had a major blow up with..and he was questioning that we would ever be friends again...and I told my cousin that..and forwarded the email to my therapist and well, he responded back saying he didnt recall saying that we could never be friends. I feel like an idiot. But see, this isnt a big deal and I have made it huge.
My therapist told me through email that he wasnt upset with me that it was my decision and I can say what I want...but that makes me look and feel like a liar. Im the kind of person that has to hear something to believe it...I cannot just read an email and be ok. Esp. coming from my therapist.
I asked him to call me but he is going to be therapeutic and not call me...and I then emailed him and told him I was sorry for being the way that I am being...I hate being so obsessive...
I ended up taking 8mg of valium which is NOT the dose Im supposed to take...because I want to mellow out...but I know that was wrong.
AND I just got an email from my T and he said stop obsessing it isnt helpful...what does that mean..helpful to HIM or to ME?
I hate obsessing.
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