Posted by Fivefires on April 5, 2007, at 4:05:37
In reply to Re: ABANDONED DESERTED » Fivefires, posted by Racer on April 4, 2007, at 18:20:04
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> > I thank both Racer & CynthiaGreene for at least having the guts to express how they feel.
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> You're welcome. I think.
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>U think right.
> My hands shake w/ tremor.
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> > I had a freakin' nervous breakdown 2yrs ago, for God's sake!
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> > Does no one see GAD as a separate illness from depression?
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> Yes, it's different. Maybe you're right, maybe the distinct flavor of your posts is not related to any depression, maybe it is entirely anxiety.
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> Even so, I think that benzos are too mild to do what you seem to need.>
>My P suggested minor tranquilizers and I said no.
>I think there are better medications out there -- including both SSRIs and atypical APs. They work. My own experience with benzos colors this -- I dissociate long before I'm calmed by them, and I have had the paradoxical agitation from them (although I don't remember, since I couldn't form memories at the time...)
>I know what dissociate means R, and I don't do that at all on them. Maybe it is because it's been soooo many years that I've been on them. Instead, I AM CALMED. My tremors got really bad when I went into a DBT group for the first time beginning of week. They aren't too bad unless I am in an unfamiliar environment.
> I guess I'm wondering two things right now: why, if there's one particular person you'd like an answer from, you don't ask for it openly? That's allowed, and it would probably get a response.>
>I did ask and haven't heard from them.
> And why you're set on benzos, rather than on some other options?
>They have been the only thing to help me. A suggestion by my P of a minor tranq' scares me, so I wanted to get as close to this as I could w/o going there. I've tried so many ADs, anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, and on and on and on, and they either don't alleviate anxiety or they actually heighten it. I often have an increase in ideation, a placated zombie feel, and I dissociate and am unable to form memories on them.(?)
> Then again, it sounded to me as though you didn't want my input, so those questions are basically academic.
>I'm sorry I've made u feel I didn't want your input. I may be defensive and even near angry. I feel an undercurrent of pointing fingers and judgment.
Of course I want your input and I appreciate it.
> Good luck.
thanks, 5f
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