Posted by chiron on March 31, 2007, at 10:05:53
In reply to Re: Help...after dr apt. feel less hope, posted by DStupid on March 30, 2007, at 20:54:42
Thank you all for your advice, the support has been very needed for my shaky emotional state.
Ines, my dr doesn't know how to diagnose me, I don't seem to fit anywhere. I seem to have some bipolar indicators, but the antipsychotics & mood stabilizers seem to be the worst.
In fact, topamax increased my agitation. And when I told my dr that, he said he had never heard of that reaction before (although he seemed to believe me). When I told him I had read about a few others that reacted the same way on the internet boards he seemed to dismiss it as not credible (I specifically mentioned this one).
It is sad that I am so low that I have felt that my only hope is that my dr is going to be my savior and find the right key. He does listen to my input, but I don't really have any ideas anymore, I've about exhausted everything.It annoys me that he will ask what I'm doing for the weekend, or what am I doing for fun. I've told him nothing is really fun - THAT IS PART OF THE PROBLEM! Where is he getting his other patients? On the surface my life is fine. There are weekends that I will participate in the normal social activities (sometimes I make myself), which are better for my mood than being stuck in my mind all day. BUT - that doesn't mean I am fine. The other day I was at a friend's house with a bunch of people having dinner acting like I was having a great time. But the whole time I was secretly obsessed with death and wanting to die. Does my dr. not believe in true chemical imbalances? If not, then why is he a doctor?
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