Posted by yxibow on March 13, 2007, at 2:51:08
In reply to Thank you, posted by johnnyj on March 12, 2007, at 13:14:19
> I cannot describe how much having someone think of me in this time has made me felt. I thank you all more than you will ever know.
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> I took .5 of zanax last night and got some sleep. Not great but considering what my mind/body has been going through it is not suprising.
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> I took 5 mg of paxil this morning and did not have an increase in restlessness that I had with luvox. I will move up to 10 this week before seeing my new pdoc and then decide where to go. I was just freaking out over the dose so I started low.Its interesting that you had restlessness with Luvox but then I've heard it as well -- because it is theoretically the most sedating of all SSRIs. But for some Paxil is. If you're one of the people who can stand Luvox, it actually really is very good for OCD, and not just gained that label for marketing purposes. For whatever reason they went generic early but it did help me for a spell a while ago.
> My head is very heavy from the xanax which benzo's do to me so hopefully I won't have to be on it for long.Xanax is a potent benzodiazepine so this isn't surprising. The quick uptake and the lipophilic nature earns it at the top of the scale. And it serves a purpose -- quick quelling of hard anxiety. For some, people take it for a long period of time for panic disorder. I think really long term use may lose its "immediacy" effect which is why I only use it short term. But I believe your purpose is to aclimatize to Paxil dose changes. Generally dose changes for a sensitive person may bring some anxiety spikes and some possible low grade nausea, especially as slow as you are increasing it.
> The ER was devastating for me at first. I thought "how far have I fallen" I am struggling but will try and relax into it. My biggest fear was I was going to lose everything and just wanted to give up. Without meds I don't know what I would have done. I actually got a little groggy after taking the paxil so for me I hope that is a good sign that it is sedating and not too activating. I wouldn't mind sleeping 10 hours a night and with my sleep debt I am sure I need a couple of months with lots of sleep.
Do not even think of "how far you've fallen", because you made a conscious decision that you needed help and help was given to you. It is far better than the alternative and I don't need to outlay that for you. I spent more than two months in a hospital and a few months in day treatment for OCD because it had gotten so bad that I just couldn't do it on my own. There were some aspects of treatment that could have been better but there were also caring psychiatric nurses there as well.
> It may be a placebo affect but at least I have some hope today. Yesterday was one of worst days in my life. Anxiety is so crippling but what mental illness isn't?
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> I do need therapy with someone who specializes in panic/ocd but there is no one in my city. I may have to travel a bit. One item I need to face is the childhood bullying I endured as a child. It is time I stop running from it and deal with it.
That's the first step. As for OCD, I don't know what variety you have or what you wish to reveal but find someone that can help you with CBT if you are up to the challenge of cognitive behavioural therapy.What you learn in it will help you down the line, because OCD is a lifelong disorder, as I know. It is quiescent now for me, but I do have garbage thoughts sometimes when my metabolism gets riled up.
Those are really the hardest to control -- pure obsessions, and either require a fair amount of medication depending on how extensive they are, or some tools of CBT that teach one how to brush them aside, which is very difficult of course, I must say.
I wish you well
-- Jay
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