Posted by johnnyj on March 12, 2007, at 13:14:19
In reply to Re: ER visit, Need some support » johnnyj, posted by Crazy Horse on March 12, 2007, at 11:33:41
I cannot describe how much having someone think of me in this time has made me felt. I thank you all more than you will ever know.
I took .5 of zanax last night and got some sleep. Not great but considering what my mind/body has been going through it is not suprising.
I took 5 mg of paxil this morning and did not have an increase in restlessness that I had with luvox. I will move up to 10 this week before seeing my new pdoc and then decide where to go. I was just freaking out over the dose so I started low.
My head is very heavy from the xanax which benzo's do to me so hopefully I won't have to be on it for long.
The ER was devastating for me at first. I thought "how far have I fallen" I am struggling but will try and relax into it. My biggest fear was I was going to lose everything and just wanted to give up. Without meds I don't know what I would have done. I actually got a little groggy after taking the paxil so for me I hope that is a good sign that it is sedating and not too activating. I wouldn't mind sleeping 10 hours a night and with my sleep debt I am sure I need a couple of months with lots of sleep.
It may be a placebo affect but at least I have some hope today. Yesterday was one of worst days in my life. Anxiety is so crippling but what mental illness isn't?
I do need therapy with someone who specializes in panic/ocd but there is no one in my city. I may have to travel a bit. One item I need to face is the childhood bullying I endured as a child. It is time I stop running from it and deal with it.
Thank you again. I will pray for everyone tonight.
johnnyj
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